My Letter to the Universe

Dear Universe,


I know you're busy, but hear me out. My name is Shari. If you've been paying attention, you'd know that I was going along all status quo for most of my life (I'm not saying how long, because if you're paying attention, you already know!) until last year. Before last year, I didn't live the life that I'd imagined for myself. I was hiding in comfort and wearing a mask. 


Last year I decided to throw all caution to the wind, and I made big changes to my life that I was afraid to make. I made them anyway, and as you know, change is difficult. Also, change can hurt on a basic level. Still, I took a deep breath, wiped the sweat off my brow, the tears from my face, and I left my career. I left my friends and family, and the familiarity of my home state. I packed up very few things, along with my two cats, and I went to the other side of the continent.


I want you to know that I've been listening to you. That's why I left and faced my fears. You told me that life is full of risks, and that if you don't risk anything then you can't gain anything either. You told me that there are billions of amazing things out there, and that I haven't seen one millionth of them. You asked me to open my eyes, my heart, and my mind, and I did that. My heart is wide open and for the first time in a long time, it beats a different tune. 


My heart feels like it's ten times bigger than it was before I moved. I've had to stretch every part of myself during these difficult, changing months. Transformations were never easy, and I don't think they're supposed to be. Caterpillars to butterflies.... Teenager to adult.... Life to the after-life.... but there's always a reward, it seems to me. Whatever the transformation is, the energy unleashed by it is magic.

Photo by A. Tortorich

That fear that you built into my system to keep me from pain, well it worked sometimes. Other times I don't think it did, but that's okay. I'm learning when to pay attention. I've learned to let go of the fear that stops me from living life fully, and I've learned to pay attention to the fear when I'm driving and it's dark and rainy out. There's a big difference, I see that now. The difference between living and hiding, or living and dying, or living and thriving.


So, Universe, I want to thank you. I took your advice, and my life is FULL. My heart is full. My soul feels rejuvenated, and my spirit feels reborn. I think I'm through with most of the pain of transformation, but if not, that's okay! I know that on the other side of it, I will understand the reasons and I will come out better than before! You've taught me to find my strength and how to use it. You've shown me the beauty around me and how to open my eyes and my soul to it. THANK YOU. 


Love,

Shari