|Dead tired. Ha.|
"You're doing great! You have a lot to handle up at the front today, and you can only do so much. Just ask us for help when you need it." I had forgotten to ask for help. I can be very independent, and I take everything on myself. Do you do this, too?
Are you the kind of person who doesn't want to ask for help? I'll admit that I'd rather balance on the brink of a slippery precipice reaching for a rope than ask for someone to hand it to me. I like to believe that I can handle anything, and that it would be a sign of weakness to ask anyone for a hand. It's NOT a sign of weakness, though. It's merely asking for some help. And the strongest, smartest person will realize that they might not be able to do it on their own, and that one helping hand will make their lives much easier, and possibly save their ass. And most people are HAPPY to help. It's moments like this that remind me that I don't know it all yet. I am still learning, and that's okay.
I appreciate you listening to me ramble. I was feeling badly about letting the crew down yesterday, and I was in a self-blame spiral. A lot of times, when I'm writing these rambling blogs, I'm trying to figure things out, and it really helps. I realize that I just need to ask for help sometimes. That will help me to do my job better, and I believe it'll help me to bond more with my new crew.
|Taken on my way home last night. Nearly full moon.|